Loss
I seem to be triggered to blog when overwhelmed with sadness. Sadly this is not my first blog about loss and it probably won’t be my last.
I would like to dedicate this to everyone who has ever lost somebody.
When someone dies, especially unexpectedly we take time to come to terms with the reality. We can talk to people and say what happened and wish condolences but somewhere in our hearts we’re hoping run into our friend or family member at the mall and get mad for making everyone upset. But, this isn’t a soap opera. When people are gone they don’t come back with some far fetched explanation. They just leave an empty space that no one and nothing will ever fill.
Time heals all wounds but sometimes you’re left with a permanent scar and that is what it is like to lose a loved one. Everyone copes differently, some people adapt and move on and some people are unable to move on. Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on and support and love from those that care. Friends and family are the band-aids. They don’t heal the wound but they make it bearable and make sure it doesn’t get worse.
Sometimes carrying on after a loved one has passed is difficult. The hardest part is figuring out what to do next but all you can do is take life one day at a time and know that your loved one would want you to live your life to the fullest. Cherishing the people we have is so important because you never know how long you will have them, every day is a gift.
I have been blessed to know wonderful people throughout my lifetime, many of whom are still around, some drifted away but I keep track via Facebook and some are no longer gracing this earth. I still miss my “sister” Paulanne. It wasn’t blood relation but it was a common knowledge of the fact that we were normal and Adam and Matthew were strange that bonded us. She had the voice of an angel and could play the piano better than I’ll ever be able to. We laughed and shared secrets and I’ll never forget when she told me that her life had been put on hold and all the things she would do. I know now she said that to make me feel better cuz she was just that kind of person… that was the last time I spoke to her.
Now Tyrone, you were sweet and funny and definitely had the best impromptu house parties. You were nice to everyone you met and I can’t name one person who didn’t like you. I still have trouble believing I’m not going to get a random message about a party at your house or run into you and brad and smitty at stc and reminisce about Montreal trips and southside antics in high school. I’m too far away to say goodbye in person so this is my goodbye. You were a link in the southside/ACI/SAM friend chain and its never going to be the same without you.
